I have been so blue lately. The thought of putting that against my head, pulling the trigger and letting it go kept coming back. I just know it's just some random thought. I'm a fighter so I'm not going to give up easily. But where is the strength? Where is the old me?
Then I read a post relating to my situation today. I was glad that there was someone out there, some one who was in the same situation as well. I just realize that I'm not alone. At one moment I thought I was but I'm not. There are many fighters out there, fighting for the same goal like mine. If they don't give up, neither do I.
Some posts from them (or would I say: my unknown companions on the long journey to a dream?)
"Let's not forget that feelings change like the weather all the time. I hope that before you jump to conclussions and make a quick decision, you take some time trying to relax and live through your situation a couple of weeks. I have noticed that when we are fighting the situation or are under a lot of pressure, all sorts of thoughts come up. I have found it helpful to let those thoughts settle down and pass me by before making a move. If possible, please get some rest and just do your best. Take care."
"Life starts now, and while we have to make sacrifices to get where we want to be in the future, we should still try and make today enjoyable as well. Hang in there, it can definitely be a struggle to do this when the distance between your goals can be so huge. Try to find some stuff that will make your life today fulfilling as well"
