Entry for December 08, 2007

"For a long time is seemed to me that life was about to begin -- real life.
But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first,
some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid.
At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life.
This perspective has helped me to see there is no way to happiness.
Happiness is the way.
So treasure every moment you have and remember that time waits for no one.
Happiness is a journey, not a destination"

Be happy

Life is full of ups and downs
Slow down and be happy


Don't worry.
Don't worry.
Don't do it.
Be happy.
Put a smile on your face.
Don't bring everybody down.
Don't worry.
It will soon pass,whatever it is.
Don't worry,be happy.
I'm not worried;I'm happy

Random

- celebrated my 350 hr @ St. Jose :)
- by chance asked the nurses where Margaret, Gloria and Ravos were because i didnt see them in summer at all... and i learnt that all of them died over the summer.. :(
Margaret : the old lady who often gave me her snack whenever she came to the hospital
Gloria: who always asked me to buy oatmeal cookies for her
Ravos: a blind man who talked a lot....


life is short and gotta treasure it

Nightmares

I have had a "re-occuring" nightmare for the past two or three years
The nightmare is about coming to the chemistry exam late and without any prep/knowledge about the questions

It came again last night.. it woke me up, just to find out summer was still around... a sign of relief

wish

  wish there were 48 hours in a day...
just to get everything, from work to studying to relaxing, done
just to have a "normal" life
just not to be an workaholic

Entry for July 08, 2007

exposed too much to benzene = dizziness + depression =(

Blue

Britain's got Talent

this guy is cool...
look at the judges' expression....it seems his audition left the judges speechless

"Confidence is, has always been sort of like a difficult thing for me
i always find it a little bit difficult to be completely confidence for myself"

[youtube http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9oxTy7KIAaA]

Faith

1. Believe in what u are doing and believe that as long as u have faith, u can get through all trials and hardships...
2 . Keep the faith and drop the fear. Don't believe your doubts and doubt your beliefs. Life is a mystery to solve, not a problem to resolve.
3. Believe in yourself!No matter what u choose.
Keep a winning attitude and u can never lose

I have a brain

I'm glad that i have a brain. It gives me an opportunity to learn new things in everyday life.
and i am thankful..






[youtube http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZqlTZqRs3kI]

Optimistic

I'm optimistic

Constant negativity and pessimism can drag people down. Try to look at the positive side of things, although you might catch yourself sometimes talking negatively when life gets rough.

Let's say "I am optimistic...

Recent studies show that constant studying can help lose weight

I think people who are stressed out tend to start losing weight. The last 30 days have been extremely intensive, a desperate attempt to chug the seemingly endless amounts of information that is required knowledge. For some reason this term, there seems to be so much more to learn, even for the individual subjects.

I've been totally skipping dinner everyday for awhile, and its weird because i dun feel any form of hunger until its 4am in the morning, and i'm up for that three minutes or something. Two meals a day seems to keep me going, while taking a break to get dinner breaks the evening studying mood.

It sure is a chemistry crash diet.

Moreover, the sky doesn't even turn dark until its after 8pm. So 7pm kinda feels like 5pm, way too early for dinner. And by the time the sky turns dark, its so late that getting dinner becomes more like a chore, sooooo lazy!





[youtube http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fmi0UbO7PZI]

Snow in April

Winter has come back

its April already.....

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Uncertain about the future

Tired of the present

You have been running and running, trying to catch up with something that you dont even know exactly what it is..
And all you've done is go farther and farther away from the precious things that you have had
U gradually lose communication..... actually lines of communication are still there but it doesnt mean there will
be communication because u just simply dunno how to revive it.....

As you go, you learn that even the one person that wasnt'supposed to ever let you down probably will
even some friends whom you have always helped betrayed you... and it happened not once but several times...
its so hard for you to swallow...friends can be friends and they can become your enemy , too....and you realize that selfishness should be and is your true friend..
you realize that being so nice is a crime because you put yourself in situations where your feelings were hurt...

You realize you might be too ambitious.... happiness may be right beside you but u didnt realize it because your mind is just too complicated....

You know you must keep battling to get what you really want out of life.... but u wonder how long u can....
You wonder whether time can turn back to 2003-2004.... but in reality, it cant...

You face reality and u know u must keep walking down the path u chose.....
eventhough the hope is fading, u must keep ur head up high....
çz u believe tomorrow is gonna be a better day..... is it? you ask yourself

or u might just give up... and be an average person..... and try to be happy?? u dont know

[youtube http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ls7ila3srzI]

Saturday March 24, 2007

s.o said: ""You only live once"..   so  i will live my life fully....
work hard
study hard
have fun
and be happy no matter what

Monday February 19, 2007

We've been told over, and over, that these years at school are supposed to be the best of our lives... if i remember who told me, i might kill them ....
 it seems like some sort of bitter inside joke that those who have gone through it are playing on us, convincing us that its true...
skool is a bitch.... and we are just like timing bombs ready to explode anytime... anyone who thinks otherwise is a freaking liar, or isnt working hard enough...
Since i chose this path, i must walk to the end of it.... no matter what happens, no matter how much happiness i've lost... life is tough  yet dont wanna give up.. or is it too late to give up?? pride, confidence and arrogrance built up until the point that i cant quit.. .quitting then i have nothing left.... just keep walking down  the path,head up high... going and dunno where the future lies...
Made so many mistakes along the way... lost so many precious things and also lost someone.... its time to face the past without regret and prepare for the future without fear. fear ?? yes.. fear of failing, fear of starting over again, fear of exploring new things, meeting new ppl ... i am just tired and bored... run so fast and its time to slow down... take things calmly...

Impossible n'est pas français.  yes, cant is not an option anymore....

If you're going through hell

Guess what I'm saying
If you're going through hell
Keep on going, Don't slow down
If you're scared, don't show it
You might get out
Before the devil even knows you're there

Yeah, If you're going through hell
Keep on moving, Face that fire
Walk right through it
You might get out
Before the devil even knows you're there


[youtube http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fhjwsWaskgw]