Give up...... NOT

A note to a close friend who is already in the profession I'm going into

hmm.. had thought of it many times. The last time I was near to it happened 7 months ago and I was about to give up my path. I was debating whether the path I had chosen was a good one because while many people are happy with what they have, I'm still trying to walk down that path quietly and lonely. I wish I were someone else, having a normal life- a happy and simple life.
However, getting that medical degree really means something to me. Choosing this path, I knew I was going to lose many "happy" things including my loved ones and I indeed lost three people along the way (just during the time in Canada).
I can't give up - partly I'm already too deep into it, partly I'm stubborn and mainly I know I'm going to regret for the rest of my life if I don't do it. The thinking of not doing it killed me every day last winter and I lost 15lbs.
By the end, I gave up my love and chose to walk down that path alone, chose to close my heart and follow my dreams.
A long journey ahead and I have never been as much calm and excited as I am right now.
I believe in fate. If it's fate, I shall meet the RIGHT one that I treasure the most one day.
and you know what, Hao? we're too young. Don't be scared! Keep walking down your path and Im sure your loved ones will always be there waiting for you. If you haven't found one yet, you will one day :)

Tuesday July 14, 2009

It's 1:22AM and I'm blogging in the lab.
Have been working like this for the past few months. I'm getting closer to my goals. A few weeks left and I will get my M.Sc... then what is next? It's what I want to do and have been working so hard toward it --> "M.D" degree.
A long journey ahead and I have never been as much calm and excited as I am right now. Soon I will leave everything behind, leave this country which has given me almost everything I wanted. I love the country, people , friends and also someone- It's you that make me hesitate. I have always thought "if I ever have a companion, that person must be like you: simple& caring. Have been following you for a long time and finally got close enough, then I had to leave. Even though I know I'm coming back after my M.D, it's a long road ahead and no one will have enough patience. I chose to close my heart and follow my dreams.

We shall meet again one day.